November 28, 2011


Dear Kurt,

I finally got a Zofran
to stay down so I will probably
be alive when you get home.

Sincerely, Lori

Medicine Sucks

Dear Kurt,

vitamin B6
milk thistle
papaya enzyme
stool softener
gummi vitamins
peppermint tea
other nasty teas

Medicine sucks. It doesn't work. I don't know why I take all this crap. I only like the sleeping pills cause it makes me sleep. The Zofran only helps a little bit. Medicine sucks to throw up.

Sincerely, Lori

November 5, 2011


Dear Self,

This is to remind you to not get pregnant again.


Sincerely, Lori

November 2, 2011


Dear Baby,

Right now your little pea sized self is cuddled up inside me working on growing healthy and strong.

Who would have thought that something so tiny could make me so sick and miserable.

Every day I curl up on the couch and try not to move.

I can practically feel you zapping all my energy and nutrients and using them to build your own little organs.

But its okay.

Because as much as I absolutely hate being this sick, I would hate even more for you to not be as healthy as you could be.

So, do your thing, little one. And if you could, make it quick and be nice to your mama. I want to actually make it to see those big eyes and tiny toes.

Sincerely, Lori

October 31, 2011


Dear Kurt,

Happy Halloween.

Sincerely, Lori

October 27, 2011


Dear Brooklyn,

Lately I have been spending most of my time laying on the couch or the bathroom floor sick and you have been pretty good at staying out of trouble.

Today, while I was lying on the couch you came down the hall with a new toy.... a box of tampons.

It’s probably not the best thing for a two year old to play with but right now I’ll let you play with them all day long as long as you are happy and I don’t have to move.

And let’s be honest, I probably won’t be needed those for a long time.

Let’s not tell your dad, though. Okay?

Sincerely, Lori

October 14, 2011


Dear Kurt,

We are gonna have a baby!

I want to scream it to the world, but I can't.

There are bigger plans in the works...

So I will just continue to tell you every chance I get.

So, guess what?

We are gonna have a baby!


Sincerely, Lori


Dear Brooklyn,

I think you wanted me to be quiet.

Sincerely, Lori

October 12, 2011


Dear Brooklyn,

Today we pick us up some pumpkins.

It is time to get into the Halloween spirit!

Now let's think costumes. It's probably going to be the last year you let me choose for you.

Sincerely, Lori


Dear Kurt,

I got two lines on a pregnancy test!

I didn't think it was going to happen.

Even now that it has, I can't convince myself it's going to last.

I went to my doctor's appointment this morning. The appointment I made so we could figure out how to fix me so we could get pregnant.

As I explained to the doctor what has been going on with my body and then the positive test this morning, I started crying.

Dang hormones.

He asked if I was worried about this pregnancy and I told him I kind of was.

So, he took some blood and his is testing my HCG levels. I hope all is well.

Maybe I have just freaked myself out from all the stuff that has been going on with my body.

But a positive test is still a positive test. We are officially pregnant. Pregnant!!!

Okay. Now I need to let that sink in.

Sincerely, Lori

October 7, 2011


Dear Brooklyn,

Some day you will be the cook of the house.

Probably because you will realize that my cooking is awful and your dad can only make about five different things.

For now I will teach you everything I know about cooking: read a recipe, add ingredients, knead the bread dough, lick the cookie dough off the mixers, and call grandma Brooksby with questions every thirty seconds.

That's it. That's everything I know about cooking.

The job will be yours as soon as you are tall enough to see the top of the counter.

So start practicing.

And good luck. (Don't tell your dad I told you this, but he's a picky eater.)

I love you.

Sincerely, Lori

October 6, 2011


Dear Kurt,

It snowed all day.

Last week Brooklyn and I were frolicking through the zoo in 85 degree weather (minus the frolicking) and laying in the grass in the backyard getting in a last minute tan.

Oh how fickle Idaho weather can be.

Sincerely, Lori

October 5, 2011


Dear Kurt,

Once upon a time I found out that I probably couldn't get pregnant right away.

So you went out and got me a kitten.

It was an adorable little thing.

But then we began noticing how Brooklyn was sneezing all the time. Then she started getting little hive-like bumps on her stomach, legs and face.

We noticed the sneezing about the same time we noticed that the kitten had quite an annoying meow that it liked to use all. the. time.

So, long story short, we got rid of it.

And we didn't even shed a tear.

The End.

Sincerely, Lori

October 2, 2011


Dear Kurt,

For Sunday morning Conference we had a little pot luck brunch with a few friends.

And all of our kids. Our very loud kids.

Unless the kids were in Brooklyn's room or in the backyard, there was a lot more Conference watching then listening going on.

But it was still good to have friends over and we DVR'd all the Conference sessions anyways.

As loud as it was during the morning Conference, it was just as quiet for the afternoon Conference.

There we a lot of cat naps going on.

And not by just the cat.

I guess it's a very good thing we have DVR these days. And the Ensign.

Sincerely, Lori

October 1, 2011


Dear Kurt,

Why is it that now that we are trying to have a baby that my menstrual cycle decides to go completely haywire on me?

I mean, super long periods and then extremely late ovulation cannot be a good thing when trying to conceive, right?

Well, that's what I thought, too. (not that you were really thinking about it. I know you try to avoid anything that has to do with this kind of stuff, if you can help it.)

So, today I decided to jump on google and see what I can find on the subject of late ovulation.

I didn't expect to find what I did.

My heart sunk at all the bad news late ovulation brings: the egg starts to go "bad" by the time it is released, I will likely start my next period before the fertilized egg can successfully implant, and I can have a chemical pregnancy.

I don't even know how to process this information right now.

Brooklyn was so easy to come by that I never even considered the fact that I could have a hard time getting pregnant.

I'm trying to come to grips with the idea that this may take a while.

I'm trying to figure out if we should even try until my cycle returns to normal, because I would hate to have a chemical pregnancy every month until it does.

I'm trying to not stress about it because that can't help.

I'm trying to tell myself that this isn't that big of a deal and there are people that try for years and years and sometimes still can't have a baby.

I'm trying.

I'm still sad. And a little confused. And probably over reacting.

But I'm trying.

I don't think conference weekend could have come at a better time for me. I know it will help.

I love you so much.

Sincerely, Lori

September 30, 2011


Dear Brooklyn,

Lately you have been glued to my hip.

You won't hardly even look at your dad.

If I walk out of the room, you drop whatever you are doing and run after me.

If I go somewhere, you scream and scream.

Today your dad said "she hates me." It was a heartbreaking moment.

I know this is just a phase, but can it be a quick phase?

And in the mean time can you not act like your dad is the boogie man sent on a mission to remove all happiness from the world?

I know he loves you. I know you love him.

And I love you both.

Sincerely, Lori

September 29, 2011


Dear Brooklyn,

You are a strange little child.

Especially when you sit and wipe your smoothie all over your face for a good 15 minutes.

It looked like throw up, which is why your dad took care of it instead of me.

Sincerely, Lori

September 25, 2011


Dear Brooklyn,

When you get really tired you start to curl your hair around your fingers.

It is the cutest thing.

Sincerely, Lori

September 22, 2011


Dear Brooklyn,

A company that is located next to Aunt Christina's work had there Grand Opening today.

Put a bouncy house, blow up slides, face painting, cotton candy, burgers and corn dogs, and live music all together and what do you get? A well spent Thursday evening.

My favorite part: how you would sit and watch the guys play music and sing. Sometimes you would start to dance too. I think you stole these guys hearts.

Sincerely, Lori

September 20, 2011


Dear Brooklyn,

Today you let me curl your hair for real!

And with minimal amounts of bribing.

It is adorable!!!

I love it and your dad keeps saying "your hair is so cute!"

Sincerely, Lori

September 18, 2011


Dear Brooklyn,

You like to put things around the back of your neck like a scarf.

Today you were doing just that with a piece of stretchy lace that I cut off a shirt.

So when you threw a fit, I decided to put you in time-out, but I didn't want to put you in your crib with the lace because it is a choking hazard (ironic).

In the middle of your fit I went to grab the lace and ended up grabbing the wrong side, so instead of pulling the lace off, I ended up tightening it around you neck and giving you an awful "rope burn".

Now every time I look at you I feel super guilty and when people see you I say "I swear I didn't try to kill my child! It was an accident, okay? Stop judging me!!"

The guilty side of me is quite sensitive.

So, just so you know I'm so sorry.

I love you.

Sincerely, Lori

September 17, 2011


Dear Brooklyn,

We went to the Idaho Falls Harvest Fest this afternoon.

Your dad was grumpy.

I was grumpy.

And after finding out that there were no Apply Cider doughnuts, Christina was grumpy.

And for the most part you were grumpy, too.

But for about ten minutes in the jumpy house, you were in heaven.

I think it was the best ten minutes of your two year old life!

But then we pulled you out and stuck you in your stroller and rolled you home... and we were all back to being grumpy again.

I think we all need naps.

Sincerely, Lori