February 28, 2010




Dear Kurt,

I love....

cuddling up with you on the couch and falling asleep to a movie. It reminds me of when we were dating or just married and between school, work and each other we rarely could make it through a movie without falling asleep.

when you give me the extra cash in your wallet so I can support my crazy need to do crafts and decorate our house.

when you sleep talk or walk and then you get mad at me when i try to tell you that whatever you were dreaming about wasn't really happening.

when you carry me to bed after I have fallen asleep on the couch.

when you try everything I attempt to cook and you pretend you like it even though I know your lying.

when you entertain the idea of eventually moving to a warmer place.

when I put my feet on your lap and you automatically put your hands around them cause you know they are cold.

Sincerely, Lori

February 25, 2010




Dear Brooklyn,

I need to paint your toenails again.

This is officially on the long list of things to do tomorrow.

Sincerely, Lori

February 23, 2010


Dear Kurt

We didn't know that today was National Pancake Day until we watched the 10 o'clock news so tomorrow we will eat lots of pancakes to make up for it.

We will eat buttermilk pancakes, german pancakes, and swedish pancakes.

Yum. I can't wait.

Sincerely, Lori

February 19, 2010


Dear Brooklyn,

Your "tummy time" started off like this:

You were happy and playing. Then you got mad and less then three minutes later you were like this:

You are like a tasmanian devil. You get mad and you start spinning.

You should really look into rolling instead...

Sincerely, Lori


Dear Everyone,

My husband is hot.

And amazing.

Be jealous.

Sincerely, Lori

February 16, 2010


Dear Kurt,

Do you think I have food poisoning?

I woke at 2 in the morning and my stomach and chest hurt so bad that I couldn't go back to sleep. The whole time I thought I was going to have to run to the bathroom and throw up.

Three years ago I had food poisoning and this was how I felt. So all night long I thought "this is definitely food poisoning."

It's now 3:00 p.m. and I haven't thrown up... weird for food poisoning, right? Right. Last time I had food poisoning I threw up dozens of times within the first 24 hours.

Then I got to thinking "could I be pregnant?"

I have been counting and re-counting the days. No. I couldn't be pregnant. Could I? I probably wouldn't be feeling sick this soon.... I'm not ready to be pregnant again.

So after much contemplation I have come to this conclusion. I am not pregnant. It's way to early to be sick cause I would have gotten pregnant within the last week.

Phew. What a relief.

Now that that is cleared up - what's wrong with me?

Sincerely, Lori

February 15, 2010


Dear Brooklyn,

I love you just they same as I did before you said "Dada" first instead of "Mama." And maybe I even love you more because it is so cute when you say dada dada and it gives me an excuse to hand you to your dad and say "she's asking you to change her diaper."

Just so you know (which I'm sure you do) your daddy loves you soooo much. I love watching the two of you play (and only sometimes having to add "Kurt, do hang her upside down" or "Kurt, don't toss her up that high"). You are the apple of his eye and every time you do something cute or special he looks up with the biggest smile on his face to see if anyone else saw.

He is going to the best dad. He is going to work hard to provide for you, he is going to try his best to teach you right from wrong, he is going to play with you everyday so that you know how loved you are.

I love him.

I love you.

Sincerely, Lori

February 14, 2010

February 13, 2010


Dear Kurt,

Because you work tomorrow we celebrated a little bit of our Valentine's Day today.

We spent a nice morning just hanging out and cuddling (my favorite). Then we went to see "Valentine's Day" at the movie theatre. It was cute, but we probably won't see it again. I'm glad we opted out of going to a busy restaurant to stay home and cook a nice dinner together.

I kinda agree with the critics when they say Valentine's Day is a "Hallmark holiday" but I will support any day in which I have an excuse to spend the entire day being with you and thinking of you and cheesily expressing my love for you.

And since celebrated today but the real thing is tomorrow I get to celebrate for two days!

So tomorrow be prepared to receive cheesy texts and random phone calls all day long and when you get home I will jump up and down and smother you with kisses and draw little hearts on your arm and have "I love you more" wars all because it's Valentine's Day and I can.

I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.

Sincerely, Lori

February 12, 2010


Dear Kimberly,

Thanks for coming over to help out with Brooklyn since my back was hurting.

If I knew she was going to go to sleep before you got here and then sleep for over four hours then I wouldn't have had you come so soon. But I appreciate it anyways. It was nice to have our "Friday morning date" back, especially since you will only live so close for a couple more months.

I'm glad you were here for Brooklyn's first time saying "da da." It was so cute.

Also, thanks for helping me with my project. You're awesome.

Love you tons. Thanks again for helping.

Sincerely, Lori

February 11, 2010


Dear Kurt,

My back hurts. I can't stand up straight. I can't even hold Brooklyn unless I am sitting down.

Tomorrow is going to suck. Brooklyn is sick and will want to be held and walked around sometimes and I won't be able to do it.

I am sad. I hope it goes away soon.

Sincerely, Lori

February 9, 2010


Dear Kurt,

You got me sick.

It's just a cold but it's the 5th one I've had since Brooklyn was born.

Henry David Thoreau said "Tis healthy to be sick sometimes." It can't be healthy to be sick this many times in six months.

My immune system is probably shot. I need to google "how to boost my immune system." Any ideas?

I wish you were home today to take care of me, a.k.a watch Brooklyn while I take an extremely long and hot bath. That sounds so nice right now.

The good news is that I don't think it will last long. I feel like it is already draining from me. Let's hope tomorrow I will be all better so we can enjoy your day off.

Sincerely, Lori

February 8, 2010


Dear Kurt

I love this little girl of ours.

This picture is how I will always think of her when I think of her first six months of life.

All cheeks and eyes. Mostly bald. One goopy eye. Calm and sweet.

We are lucky.

Sincerely, Lori

February 7, 2010






Dear Brooklyn,

Today I am a bad mommy.

First - You woke up at 4:30. Usually I would feed you, you would quickly fall back to sleep and then I would put back in your crib. This time was different. After I fed you I looked down and there were two huge eyes staring back up at me. With four hours of sleep and only six the night before I decided (even though I swore I wouldn't try this again) that now was the time to let you "cry-it-out". I thought it would take 20 minutes at most. Two hours of almost pure crying and about 15 trips to your room to give you your binky later, I picked you up and rocked you to sleep within five minutes.

Second - I always put you in your bobby while I get ready for the day. Today I got all ready then I ran downstairs to get your clothes out of the dryer. As I was coming through my bedroom to go into the bathroom where you were, I heard a loud bang and then you screaming. I ran into the bathroom and found you facedown on the tile. You had somehow wiggled yourself out of the seat and fell face firs into the ground.

I felt like the worst mom in the whole world.

I'm sorry. Tomorrow I will be better.

I love you.

Sincerely, Lori


Dear Brooklyn,

Your friend Cashe came over yesterday.

I think you have a baby-crush on him.

He is so adorable.

I approve.

Sincerely, Lori

February 5, 2010


Dear Kurt,

It's Friday night.

Let's go party.

Sincerely, Lori

February 4, 2010


Dear Brooklyn,

Today you are six months old.

I am not an overly emotional person most of the time but today I felt like crying. My baby is growing way too quickly.

You are half way to one year!! At which point you will be halfway to two and then you will be halfway to four and then halfway to getting baptized and then halfway to being a boy crazy teenager and then you will be halfway to having a family of your own!!

That is it. I am taking you away to Never Never Land so that you can stay like this forever. You can be your six month old self forever and I will be your 23 year old mommy forever.

This way I will always be able to rock you to sleep. Forever.

I will be able to cuddle you whenever I want and you won't squirm away from me. Forever.

You will be content just sitting on my lap. Forever.

I will always be your favorite and you will cry whenever I leave the room even if there are five other people around. Forever.

You will lay on the ground and grab your feet and talk to them. Forever.

I will be able to keep you safe from the world. Forever.

I can't wait till I will be 23 forever and you will be 6 months old forever.

So off to Never Never Land. How do we get there? I'm not sure.

I will google it as soon as I am done writing you this letter.

I love you.


Sincerely, Lori

February 2, 2010


Dear Punxsutawney Phil,

I am not mad at you for seeing your shadow because even if you didn't then Idaho would still have four more months of winter.

Sincerely, Lori

February 1, 2010


Dear Brooklyn,

You were rubbing your eyes and crying and sucking on your binky and taking really long blinks so I wrapped you up, rocked you to sleep and put you in your swing in the office.

I shut the door cause the neighbor kids were here and I didn't want you to wake up.

A couple times I thought I heard you but when I listened it was silent.

An hour later I put my ear to the door. You were talking. I opened the door and your back was arched so that you could look straight up at the fishies on top of the swing. Whatever you were telling them must have been funny cause you started laughing.

It was the cutest thing I ever did saw.

You are precious. At least you will be until you start screaming at me cause the fishies kept you awake and you are tired.

Maybe this will be you on the way to the library.

Sincerely, Lori